[Slow Ben]

Storms comin Annie.

Rains starting to switch to sleet. Supposed to get done ice and a ton of snow.

Snow all you want, but keep the damn ice away.

[Mezla PigDog]

Cause, on 01 February 2022 - 05:30 PM, said:

Work changed my job title. Pay is the same, responsibilities are the same but I went from:

Field application and sales scientist

To

Technical sales specialist

I feel like the previous title was the better one to have on a business card, resume or LinkedIn profile but maybe I’m just imagining it

I reckon the new one is better. Technical could be in-house or field applications so has a broader potential remit. The loss of 'scientist' may be what's smarting but in my area of the life science / medical device world 'technical specialist' covers both engineers and scientists so is interchangeable.

I might be biased because the people who make up my team have Technical Specialist as their job title...

[Macros]

New title sounds far better.
Stripping the words sales out of any job title is a boost, sales scientist sounds like one of those awful made up job titles that folk stick on their resumes

[Cause]

I keep close watch on my credit score.when I first got to the USA banks basically didn’t consider me a real person. Was a struggle to open a bank account punt. Took a year to get a credit card.

So I try my best to do all the right things. But now one of the major burues ha dropped my score massively while the other two have increased it significantly. Has me concerned.

[worry]

Credit scores are fake and it's their purpose to make you feel that way. But you may want to check your history with that bureau and see if there's something to dispute.

[Macros]

Credit scores are such bullshit

[Puck]

Having a complete breakdown and no one to talk to cause it's 2am.

I think I have burnout and I'm so ashamed because I was doing so well after my depression. I'm doing the work of what feels like three people and I am so tired of being unable to do any of it properly. I'm ashamed of not being good enough and not being able to do the things I'm good at anymore and of not being able to uphold what I achieved. I can't stop crying.

I'm sorry. I have nowhere else where people will listen and I need to find the courage to go to the doc tomorrow. I don't think I can go into work tomorrow. I just can't. I'm so freaking useless.

Edit: I'm sorry, I just need to voice that somewhere and this is the safest space I know.

This post has been edited by Puck: 10 February 2022 - 01:10 AM

[Slow Ben]

No need to apologize Puck.




You ARE good enough.

[worry]

100%

[amphibian]

Puck, on 10 February 2022 - 01:07 AM, said:

Having a complete breakdown and no one to talk to cause it's 2am.

I think I have burnout and I'm so ashamed because I was doing so well after my depression. I'm doing the work of what feels like three people and I am so tired of being unable to do any of it properly. I'm ashamed of not being good enough and not being able to do the things I'm good at anymore and of not being able to uphold what I achieved. I can't stop crying.

I'm sorry. I have nowhere else where people will listen and I need to find the courage to go to the doc tomorrow. I don't think I can go into work tomorrow. I just can't. I'm so freaking useless.

Edit: I'm sorry, I just need to voice that somewhere and this is the safest space I know.

Voicing that here is a pretty good idea.

Can you take the day off? If not, a day soon?

I burnt out severely in late 2020 and early 2021 to a point where I lost my job. The capacity to work is like a muscle and yours is severely strained right now. I understand my version of it pretty well and I want you to know that you're not alone at all. If you want to talk about it, I'm here.

[Imperial Historian]

Puck, on 10 February 2022 - 01:07 AM, said:

Having a complete breakdown and no one to talk to cause it's 2am.

I think I have burnout and I'm so ashamed because I was doing so well after my depression. I'm doing the work of what feels like three people and I am so tired of being unable to do any of it properly. I'm ashamed of not being good enough and not being able to do the things I'm good at anymore and of not being able to uphold what I achieved. I can't stop crying.

I'm sorry. I have nowhere else where people will listen and I need to find the courage to go to the doc tomorrow. I don't think I can go into work tomorrow. I just can't. I'm so freaking useless.

Edit: I'm sorry, I just need to voice that somewhere and this is the safest space I know.

If your boss has any sense they would encourage you to take the day and go to a doctor, burnout is no joke and recognising by it and treating it early is essential.

There is no shame in burning out because you have taken on to much.

[Tsundoku]

I feel you Puck, I'm currently doing what four people were doing last year. I'm just taking it as one task at a time, keep going, one step at a time etc. When I can focus on one thing at a time, that is.
And then there's the everpresent sensation of having a lot of plates spinning at once ...

Everyone has a tipping point. The hard part is knowing where it is. But you are stronger than you think.

This post has been edited by Tsundoku: 10 February 2022 - 12:40 PM

[QuickTidal]

Mental health in the drain again. I don't know how to climb out some days.

[amphibian]

QuickTidal, on 10 February 2022 - 01:05 PM, said:

Mental health in the drain again. I don't know how to climb out some days.

I feel you on that too. I'm sorry.

There's the usual checklist of things to do and I'm assuming you've gotten to some or all of them (get some rest, recharge with a fun thing done with your loved ones, eat, drink, put aside the heavy family stuff, therapy etc). I hope it gets better and you can talk here too.

[QuickTidal]

amphibian, on 10 February 2022 - 04:39 PM, said:

QuickTidal, on 10 February 2022 - 01:05 PM, said:

Mental health in the drain again. I don't know how to climb out some days.

I feel you on that too. I'm sorry.

There's the usual checklist of things to do and I'm assuming you've gotten to some or all of them (get some rest, recharge with a fun thing done with your loved ones, eat, drink, put aside the heavy family stuff, therapy etc). I hope it gets better and you can talk here too.

Yeah, my wife knows and we are ordering from a steakhouse for dinner, and probably going to watch a movie together (she and the kids have been sick for days so I've been hibernating in our bedroom away from them), so that hopefully helps.

Thanks for always being supportive man. I appreciate it.

[Puck]

Big thank you to everyone who replied! I am feeling better, though it keeps coming back in waves. I went to my GP first thing in the morning. I am now on sick leave until the end if next week and then we'll evaluate how to proceed.

I was very loopy all day since I hadn't slept a single second last night. But I did talk to my boss briefly. Difficult to tell what the best way to approach this is, he suggested putting the blame on a project I was involved with recently at work, but I know that's not the main cause . I need to calm down first and am going to take the time off work to do so. Talked to a few of my colleagues (we're a super small team, less than five people) and they were super understanding.

We'll see. I need to not think about work for a bit, which is proving to be quite difficult. But being able to hole up on my own place away from people is making it easier.

This post has been edited by Puck: 11 February 2022 - 04:05 AM

[Abyss]

QT, Puck - we live now in weird times that put extra strains on us above and beyond the perfectly normal madness most of us deal with every day.
Just being able to identify that and vent it here or elsewhere puts you ahead of many. Being strong enough to take active steps, small or large, makes a huge difference, and you ARE strong enough, both of you.

[amphibian]

Puck, on 11 February 2022 - 04:05 AM, said:

Big thank you to everyone who replied! I am feeling better, though it keeps coming back in waves. I went to my GP first thing in the morning. I am now on sick leave until the end if next week and then we'll evaluate how to proceed.

I was very loopy all day since I hadn't slept a single second last night. But I did talk to my boss briefly. Difficult to tell what the best way to approach this is, he suggested putting the blame on a project I was involved with recently at work, but I know that's not the main cause . I need to calm down first and am going to take the time off work to do so. Talked to a few of my colleagues (we're a super small team, less than five people) and they were super understanding.

We'll see. I need to not think about work for a bit, which is proving to be quite difficult. But being able to hole up on my own place away from people is making it easier.

I think your instinct to not think about work for a bit is right.

I wish I had said in mid-2020 to my supervisor and our boss "I can't handle a tripled workload. We need to get half of this off my plate and redefine expectations. This is damaging me." Going from 3x workload to 1.5x workload might have saved my job and my health from severe burnout. If that's a helpful thing to do, I hope it works for you.

[Aptorian]

I've been sitting and staring at the new roster for the team I am managing for hours now. I'm trying to move people around between houses, trying to split people between two places per day, trying to figure out how to get 6 hours work done with 4. Basically trying to perform alchemy by summoning time crystals out of a fucking excel spread sheet.

WHY ON EARTH DID I THINK BECOMING A TEAM LEADER WAS A GOOD IDEA!!!

[worry]

I'm thinking of starting a Fantasy Library Logistics League, if anyone wants to join.