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Tiste Simeon, on 04 February 2024 - 04:31 PM, said:

Indeed, you would always be welcome in the Painfully Eager Newbs. Maybe and admin could help him with that ��

Divorced again, but happier than I have ever been. Hard to say if fatter or just same fat, but high hopes for hiking around my new home. Definitely hitting a stride for what I want to be in my life, though, like others of you have said, wishing I wasn't in the body-starting-to-fail part of my life. Hoping to build a RL community in this upcoming year, but still looking for something to join out there.

I just deleted Instagram so free of Meta, which is really nice. And with that all that is left is texts here and there. I am just playing the time game and letting it all fade, and i think it will work well for me as it it did for you amph.

The whole UFO thing is really fucking with my head. I feel like everything just keeps getting weirder and more unhinged. UFOs, like ghosts, were always a fringe interest to my mind, something I wished was real but that seemed too sketch to be more than a prank or deranged elements in the population. And now we seem to have hard evidence that aliens exist? I mean, at this point I am so mentally exhausted, I am relatively non-plussed. Just another day as a xennial, another world breaking event popping up on the tiktok feed. Moving onto the failure of the Atlantic Conveyor Belt.

I think about preparing for the future, saving, maybe (if the market crashes) buying a home if the billionaires get eaten as a rich meal, etc. But I feel like day-to-day living makes more sense because, fuck, is that Ukrainian nuclear plant gonna be blown up and Europe become a no-go zone? Is the next round of super-hurricanes going to finally lead to the Southerner diaspora up north? Is the UPS strike going to bring the economy down yet? And can Elon fucking turn off that stupid X logo on his building?

I don't know if the rest of you feel this, but I swear I live with two mindsets simultaneously: in one, I do my job, watch a few horrible things happen to the world, work into old age, and hope my kids aren't hurt too much by the future they inherited. In the other mindset, the world as we know it ends tomorrow, and I expect to survive a Walking Dead world (certain not to last long myself) where any semblance of consistency no longer exists. And I genuinely think both seem equally likely. And stupid, motherfucking UFOs just make me feel like this duality isn't inconsistent with the world with which I am presented. Some days I wonder how we just go to work, come home, make dinner, and get 7-8 hours of sleep before rinsing and repeating again. But what else are we to do really?

Great advice. Thank you.