Another long rant ahead, just skip.. *sigh*
My mother. But of course. WHAT ELSE? When has anything else made me rage inside so much within the last couple of years? Yeah, nothing. So, I'm broke. She knows that. Why am I broke? Because SHE borrowed money from me some months ago and swore on the high haveans she'd give it back BEFORE graduation. It's not like I believed her, but NOT to borrow her money when she knows I have it (even though I made it clear I saved it up for the special purpose of being able to afford graduating, what with printing costs and all) would have made life so much more unpleasant when the last thing I needed was MORE of her nagging me about something. NOW, I told her I NEED it back because I have to pay my freaking health insurance, the same freaking health insurance I could do without except for HER nagging me about because omg, what if I don't get my freaking meds and suddenly can't have freaking children, MAYBE, but she so wants freaking grandchildren she will NEVER get because I'd rather personally strangle myself than spawn.
Also, she's getting back into the habit of demanding I come and help out at the shop on Saturday mornings. She's been doing it since I went to school and SHE JUST WON'T ACCEPT THAT I'M KINDA-SORTA TOO OLD for going over there so I can do work she just can't say no to customers about and which pays me, what, six or seven euros for half a day. I earn more at my part-time job in a freaking hour. I also have to run after that money for weeks. And yet she makes a scene, with tears in her eyes, no less, when I'm somewhat late, even though I'm perfectly on time to manage whatever work she's got for me (that is, unless she 'miscalculated' again and there's actually, again, twice as much to do as she told me). Then she makes more of a scene because she has to pay her part-time help for doing that instead of me, so she loses the money. Logic tells me she'd lose it anyway if she actually kept her promise and paid ME for doing that. Frankly, she should just stop taking on that work. It does not pay and it's an annoyance to EVERYONE involved.
This is kindergarten. I don't feel taken seriously. She can't wait for me to earn enough money to support myself completely, yet apparently expects me to still be living with her and running to her to do stupid work for nothing even when I do so.
She's also gotten into the habit of making a scene whenever she perceives something I say as.. whatever she perceives it as. Something like:
Her: What are you doing?
Me: Making tea.
Her: That's so typical, you just can't answer normally!
Me: *looks at teapot in hand* ......
Now, I admit to not being too wordy about what I do. That's partly because I'm rarely doing anything exciting, and partly because I dislike anyone snooping around in my business and also because there's no point in telling her I'm also talking to my best friend on skype, because she will want to know what about which was in this instance 1. none of her business and 2. a discussion about Karsa Freaking Orlong in HoC.
The bottom line, of course, is that I need to get a place of my own. Sadly, unless some miracle happens, I doubt this will happen within this year. Unfortunately, I just can't shake the feeling that staying with my mother bogs me down, both financially and psychologically. I'm just sick and tired of having to report everything I do and every place I go to and every book I buy.
/rant
This post has been edited by Puck: 25 April 2015 - 08:35 AM