[Centzon Totochtin]

Soooo sleepy. Caught up with a friend last night, which was awesome, however we lost track of time so didn't get home til a bit after midnight and took me ages to get to sleep So completely buggered now.

And Lucy and Shiara aren't replying to my emails for lunch this morning

[lobo the wolfman]

Wry, on Aug 4 2009, 07:44 AM, said:

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It has gotten to the point that finances will no longer allow me to try to get a real job that requires a degree and will further my career. I need money NOW, and so I'm head to the motherfucking mall to pick up job applications. If I could afford a gun I would shoot myself.

I know this feeling

So do I, it's just gotten harder for me to look for a job as i have just been notified that i am getting kicked out of my unit before the end of the month because i can't afford rent payments. Which is great because i have nowhere else to go.

[Aptorian]

Raymond Luxury Yacht, on Aug 3 2009, 11:29 PM, said:

It has gotten to the point that finances will no longer allow me to try to get a real job that requires a degree and will further my career. I need money NOW, and so I'm head to the motherfucking mall to pick up job applications. If I could afford a gun I would shoot myself.

Cheer up Raymond, there's always prostitution.

[Raymond Luxury Yacht]

I think I might be about to have a nervous breakdown. I keep having what can best be described as panic attacks, something that's never happened before. My stomach is constantly knotted up, I can't breathe, it's not pleasant. I think it feels like something bad is going to happen, like a heart attack or something. Sorry to sound like a little emo girl, but it's either complain to you pretend people who live in the internets or the people I know in real life, and that's not how I roll. So, you get to hear it.

I'm just in a really weird place mentally right now, and I don't like it.

[Slum]

They make pills for that sort of thing, RLY. It sounds like you're struggling with anxiety issues, which understandable given your current situation. Try seeing your GP about it.

[Aptorian]

Pills are not the solution to all of life's problems.

I know how Ray is feeling, I get like that sometimes. I have a low income job, while studying and having to pay off on a loan, pay the rent, etc. Luckily I have always had a kind of "meh" attitude to life's problems. I face them as they come along and deal with it. Actually that has sometimes gotten me into deeper trouble, but what ever

Obviously talking with someone about how your feeling Ray will help. But seeing as it's your finances that seem to be what is causing you major grief, try getting an appointment with an advisor at a bank, not necisarrily your own and go over your finances with him and figure out what your options are and what to expect down the road if things don't change soon.

Consider talking with a job councillor as well. You may have to accept that your future doesn't lie in teaching and there are other paths for a career you could look into.

[Ain't_It_Just_]

I was supposed to get home early today, but my sports photos took forever and I actually ended up being late to get home. Angryface.

[Centzon Totochtin]

I'm with Apt on this one I used to suffer from bad panic attacks, not for the same reasons but I have some documents somewhere with useful tips etc for dealing with them, I can pull them out for you if you think they would help RLY

[Slum]

Well, when it's the middle of the night and you're so keyed up with worry that you feel like you're about to have a heart attack, a Xanax or whatever might not be a bad thing to have around for such an occurrence.

My mom used to be a basketcase worrying about things until she'd driven herself into a nervous wreck. She got on something and she's a totally happier person that enjoys life a lot more. I tend to shun the pharmaceutical route myself, but it has helped millions and millions of people lead better lives.

[Raymond Luxury Yacht]

Really, what it all comes down to is if I could get a decent job, all problems (finances, self-respect, marital, family, ability to do relaxing things, anxiety) will be solved. I'm being a pussy right now, and it disgusts me. I need to stop and man up.

I'm feeling much better right now. A couple episodes of the Venture Brothers will do that.

[Aptorian]

Go buy a lottery ticket then.

I do that once in a while when the pool gets large.

I'll go around feeling like a millionaire untill the numbers are announced and I then fall into a pit of missery

[Zanth13]

Im on a damn streak, I think another relationship probably down the drain... its gotten to the point where I dont even mind anymore...


@RLY... that sucks... every thing will work out eventually... i just takes time... this time 3 years from now you will look back on these post and be like wow, wtf was wrong with me.... (thats if they have internet under your local bridge ) i kid, i kid...

if nothing else when your wifey is done with her schooling you can have her bring home the bacon while you play house husband...

[Mezla PigDog]

Raymond Luxury Yacht, on Aug 4 2009, 12:11 PM, said:

Really, what it all comes down to is if I could get a decent job,

But in the mean time, there are DRUGS!!! I had weird panic attacks while I was trying to finish my phd and when I was looking for work afterwards. Shortness of breath, crippling stomach ache, hot sweats, pounding heart, shakes. They were particularly bad first thing in the morning when you are awake enough to think but not enough to rationalise so the horrors would just descend (what am I doing with my life, I am broke, what if I fail my phd, blah blah blah). Looking back, I spent too much damn time alone in the house in front of the computer trying to work/looking for jobs. Just go back to basics, get a daily routine of getting the heck out of the house every day, set aside time to be really constructive at job hunting (and stick to it) and become obsessive compulsive about the household chores. Mrs RLY will at least be pleased the house is clean.

[Raymond Luxury Yacht]

Mezla PigDog, on Aug 4 2009, 04:50 AM, said:

Raymond Luxury Yacht, on Aug 4 2009, 12:11 PM, said:

Really, what it all comes down to is if I could get a decent job,

But in the mean time, there are DRUGS!!! I had weird panic attacks while I was trying to finish my phd and when I was looking for work afterwards. Shortness of breath, crippling stomach ache, hot sweats, pounding heart, shakes. They were particularly bad first thing in the morning when you are awake enough to think but not enough to rationalise so the horrors would just descend (what am I doing with my life, I am broke, what if I fail my phd, blah blah blah). Looking back, I spent too much damn time alone in the house in front of the computer trying to work/looking for jobs. Just go back to basics, get a daily routine of getting the heck out of the house every day, set aside time to be really constructive at job hunting (and stick to it) and become obsessive compulsive about the household chores. Mrs RLY will at least be pleased the house is clean.

Oh, I'm fully domesticated in my unemployment. I do all the shopping, cooking every day, cleaning, laundry, yardwork, pack her a lunch every day, make her coffee every morning, pet duties, everything. I'm a great little housewife. Which is horribly emasculating and part of why I hate myself. I'm a better housewife than most housewives I know, but then they all have jobs.

[Mezla PigDog]

My goddamned science hex is spreading. Fnckity fnck.

[tiam]

Relationship troubles ftw!

My gf, the one frm a few pages back if anyone remembers, has just stormed out to go shopping with her sister. Im staying at hers all week and im now sat in her house on my own contemplating just leaving an going back to Cardiff. Patrt of me alos thinks that she wouldnt even give a shit as she doesnt seem to care rly. Ah well theres my emo done for a while ill see if i can patch things up.

In other news i have been a student for the last for years an waorking as much as i can and have recently noiced ive been paying tax which os shit but good when i get it all back.

[Hetan]

Pedantic Bears are messing with mine...

[Wry]

Tiam said:

Relationship troubles ftw!

My gf, the one frm a few pages back if anyone remembers, has just stormed out to go shopping with her sister. Im staying at hers all week and im now sat in her house on my own contemplating just leaving an going back to Cardiff. Patrt of me alos thinks that she wouldnt even give a shit as she doesnt seem to care rly. Ah well theres my emo done for a while ill see if i can patch things up.

In other news i have been a student for the last for years an waorking as much as i can and have recently noiced ive been paying tax which os shit but good when i get it all back.

Relationships are meant to be fun... you should be enjoying yourself mate and be happier with this girl. I think people sometimes forget this, i know i did.

If you find that she make you miserable and unhappy as a frequent occurrence, maybe this one isn't for you?

Just something to think about Tiam.

[Aptorian]

Hetan, on Aug 4 2009, 08:40 PM, said:

Pedantic Bears are messing with mine...

Not my pedantic bear thread I hope.

*covers in fear*

[Anomander]

RLY, depending on what your degree is have you thought about doing some tutoring for uni students? It would at least be a small amount of income coming in while you search for a more stable job. Failing that I would suggest going into a job bank/head hunter/etc and having them shop around your resume. It's worked well for those I know who have tried and honestly can't hurt any.