Posted 02 August 2016 - 01:39 AM
Fuck, my post mortem got deleted....
Goddamn phone posting.
So, as I said before, love you guys and thanks.
Date went well (1.5 hours normal?). She was a pretty girl, calm, smart, good conversation. Awesome taste in music and even loves Dexter. Beautifully toned, loved her eyes and hair, though partial facial paralysis and bad dentition was a minus.
Essentially, it boiled down to world travel for me. Not into it. I like road trips, I desparately need to get back to England but I am more of a homebody, dreaming of fall with rain and warm fires with hot cocoa and a good book. She likes sun and gets reverse altitude sickness. And has no kids, so that is a degree of freedom I cannot match.
Kind of sad bout it (she was really pretty, not knock your socks off, but easy on the eyes). And it was nice to have good conversation and new music tastes to complement my own. But no chemistry, no emotional imperative to keep this going.
This is a hard road, isn't it. I think I have a ways to go.
"You don't clean u other peoples messes.... You roll in them like a dog on leftover smoked whitefish torn out f the trash by raccoons after Sunday brunch on a hot day."
~Abyss