The last three weeks have been some of the most challenging, eye-opening and tough weeks for me in my life. Maybe the past year+. Experience is the biggest eye opener. The point is to grow and challenge our belief structure. I always try to challenge my worldview.
I survived. As a survivalist this was a total win for me. What cost? Is reality about just facing down the corporate world and making it thorough the challenges it levels at you. Yes, you can do this. Survive. Keep your head low and work hard, that's how I was raised!! At what cost...it kind of makes you a dick is what I decided.
I don't want to go that path. It's really bittersweet..you are alive another day to survive in the world ( hey i got bills) but it's not about just survival. It's about helping your fellow man. I kind of came to the conclusion over time a lot of the shit we , I, got indoctrinated ( as the right wing) that really doesn't benefit the people that really exist.
I am all sitting there...and kind of view Ayn Rand's teachings in horror lately as I did a re-read... Which is weird cause I totally know where the right comes from and the pure feeling of never being in control. It's so weird because I get that viewpoint and know where the right is coming from the majority of the time. Here is how view thing's lately..and my musings...
1) I was wrong for so long too. Corporations and breaking up the world in the smallest of factions, would never ever work. Libertarians are wrong. The reasons they are wrong is the same thing I have always thought about the government too. The sociopaths, these little sniveling pieces of shit rule this part of the world too. They will do everything in there power to stay in control and they put each other in power positions. As the worker-bees we have to put up with these people in leaderships positions and just run with their totally illogical and unintelligent decisions. Their criminals.
2) Government is absolutely needed. Maybe not at this super power planned version we run with--> The government doesn't go after the real criminals. They are complicit and need to do their job. Protect us.
3) Religion. I am religious. These are *my* view's and I do not get to force my belief's onto others. I can state them and others can buy into it that way. Religion mostly makes most people very hospitable. On the grand scale...religious zealotry in all forms has really fucked up our world. Privately I can believe in whatever. Even the most intelligent person has to believe is something larger than themselves. I cannot use the word of "god" to cast my shitty small world , perception, onto others.. Can we get of the same page here. Separation of church and state was a baffling easy concept..why can't stick with it.
I guess I decided to change my core Ethos and the stuff I used to believe was wrong.
As as survivalist, I kind of ultimately decided that kind of makes me a dick. I like people...people are what the world is about! It's about being good to others and having no expectations back..at some point in life I forgot/lost this.
/rant over.
tl;dr Reality is brutal sometimes you come to conclusions that don't fit with the way you the thought the world worked. Being wrong and dropping your ego.
The last three weeks have been fucking exhausting..night.
This post has been edited by Nicodimas: 29 April 2016 - 06:39 AM
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Briar King, on 28 April 2016 - 06:24 PM, said:
